Izyan

2010-11-09T22:22:00.003+08:00

seriously, you are testing my patience. you've said i've not change. well i guess you don't know me anymore. if i hadn't, i would have attack you back. but i know, it's not worth it losing myself for someone who just needs to face up to reality. i know alot about you girl, don't make me spill everything out. but i'm not letting your words bring me down. i'm not letting you degrade myself.

2010-11-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

HI. I'M OFFICIALLY REVIVING MY BLOG.
hahaha, okay, so this is my first post after 4 months! *yay yay* so, life has been wonderful but extremely hard. but yeah, i'll get through it (: anyway, it's the holidays and i'm not enyoing it. Y-E-T. classes in the morning. boohoo. and everyone is so busy ): but hopefully, after this week, i'll be enjoying this holidays!

AND, TODAY IS NURUL HAFIZAH'S BIRTHDAY! YAY YAY. I LOVE YOU BABE!

2010-07-21T20:36:00.003+08:00

Racial Harmony.
On this beautiful day, all of us come together as one.
AWESOME.

2010-07-16T18:27:00.003+08:00

One day, i wish to be a model. a model that just 1.58m tall, doesn't have the perfect figure, doesn't have straight lined-up teeth, eat a lot. and show people that you don't have to be 1.75m tall to be a model nor have an hour figure. you just need to feel beautiful inside. and you will be pretty on the outside too.

something just have to ruin my mood.
bye, i'm off.

2010-07-14T20:00:00.002+08:00

Baby, stay strong.
Hang in there alright.
I'll love you always.

2010-07-08T20:56:00.002+08:00

SAYA MARAH DAH SEDIH.
SAYA MACAM NAK TUMBUK MUKA AWAK!

2010-06-25T23:51:00.006+08:00

heyho! i'm back from sentosa yo. haha. it was so fun to the max. haahaa! anyway, this blogpost is inspired by all my awesome girlfriends. "kalau nak carik kawan, cari kawan sejati." i think, i found mine. ever wondered who will be there for you when you hit rock-bottom in life or even when you have the worst mood swing ever? not those who are your friends just because you're hot or popular. not those who are your friends just because you're rich and can provide for them. it's your true friends. the only group of people that's not afraid to tell you the cold truth right in your face even if it makes you cry, cause their only intention is to help you become a much better and stronger individual. yes, it's hard to find someone like this. but someday, someone will come by and compliment your strengths, make up for your flaws and is ready to go through the toughest time with you. some people say true friends don't exist, but i choose to believe. so when you've found them, don't ever let go.

25th JUNE 2010
It's Michael Jackson 1 year death anniversary.
R.I.P

AND...

IT'S MY 100th POST!
hip hip horray!
haha.

2010-06-22T00:55:00.003+08:00

grow hair grow! if you grow longer faster, i swear i'll love you forever and i will hate you no more! haha. you know what, everyone has this love-hate relationship with their own hair. you love your hair when it's a good day and you'll hate it when it's a bad day and you will feel like chopping off your ugly hair. whatever it is, it is always difficult to get the perfect hair. even when it's perfect, you will never be satisfied. cause humans are never grateful of what they have. they always want better.

you don't see it anymore cause i've stop showing my love for you.

2010-06-18T21:02:00.005+08:00

BOO! i found this picture in my desktop. how cute is it? haha! jk jk. i know i look alien-y but what do you expect? i was 11! haha! anyway, i saw someone today and i dawned upon me. i was really stupid to hang on to a relationship that was so depressing. no hard feelings though. that brings me to the topic of abusive relationship. the thought that always comes to mind is physical abuse. but we often overlook the other aspect that's more serious; emotional abuse. an emotional relationship is so tiring, it sometimes drain all your soul and energy. to me, this type of abuse is as serious, if not more, than physical abuse. a cut will take a few days to heal but what about a heartbreak? how long will that take to heal? months? years? no, forever. if you are in this type of relationship and you think maybe in the end, it will work out, trust me, it wont. ask yourself, is it really worth all those sufferings? is he/she worth all your tears? maybe to you, yes. but you're not to the other half.

i'm off to melaka with family tomorrow! yeah! haha. be back on sunday yo!
and on sunday, someone's coming back too! yay yay!

2010-06-17T21:59:00.005+08:00

hello! i'm here to post a proper post! haha. anyway, i had this convo with someone.

me: just buy iphone la.
him: if i buy, i scared uh.
me: why?
him: cause if i buy, i scared.. you know what.

here's the story. his phone was stolen before and now, he's very protective of his phone. there's a saying that goes "once bitten, twice shy". i know it's better to be safe than sorry. but seriously, you have to trust your own mankind. i know sometimes this trust is misuse but if you go out with the type of attitude that someone is going to steal your phone, then most likely, someone will. and that can also apply to life. if you always have a negative mindset, then you will have a sad, depressed life. if you have a positive mindset, which can be a lil' difficult sometimes but it IS possible, then you will be happier and you will enjoy life much more. we gotta have faith that tomorrow will always be a better day. cause tomorrow is the only saving grace of today. spread the love baby.

somehow, i think i miss you.

i miss your voice.

i miss our night calls.

2010-06-17T13:13:00.001+08:00

I have finally revived this dead blog of mine! hip hip hooray!
i will do a proper post tonight.

if you wanna be link, leave a tag (:

2010-05-05T19:04:00.000+08:00

THIS BLOG IS OFFICIALLY DEAD LIKE ANYTHING.

HAHA. GOOD DAY POEPLE.

2010-03-30T21:19:00.000+08:00

Heart, stopping messing around with mind. you guys are making my head spin around.

i did not know what i have just done. but i am very very confused right now.

i think, i was too rash.

no one could ever compare to you.

and i don't think i could ever love again the way i did.

2010-03-29T21:24:00.000+08:00

It just don't feel right.

2010-03-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

- I miss the old times.

My mind always said that i have forgotten about you. but my heart said otherwise. i'm still trying to prove my heart wrong. goodbye. i finally had the courage to do so. i'll look back, and i'll never regret the 9 months of my life with you.

2010-03-25T21:20:00.001+08:00

Baby, i love the way you make me smile.

I love the way you laugh makes me laugh.

p.s , humairah, i love you (:

2010-03-14T21:07:00.000+08:00

i knew you would go and leave.

the way you did before.

but don't worry, i was prepared for it this time.

goodbye, my dear boy.

2010-03-13T13:12:00.000+08:00

i totally disappointed myself.

i knew my "best", was not my best.

ahhhhhhh. i'm feel so dejected! ):

2010-03-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

it was so ironic today, i swear.

today was the day my past came back looking for me.

2010-03-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

Cause boy, you gotta realise that your words hurt.

You got me falling heads over heels for you.

2010-02-22T16:57:00.000+08:00

(bring me here and i'll give you a hundred and one kisses and hugs)

I LOVE MY MUM VERY MUCH.

i'm glad i have such a wonderful mum who has been with me through it all.

i may hate you at times, which is usually short-lived, out of exasperation.

but honestly, i really really really really love you very very very very much.

life is getting better day by day and i'm super super happy about it.

but still, my life would be more complete if you are here with me (:

2010-02-19T14:03:00.001+08:00

i'm tired of all this drama.

so, i won't care anymore.

i'm just gonna live my life.

without, or without you.

eye-candy (:

2010-02-16T17:23:00.001+08:00

i feel like throwing away the present i made for you.

2010-02-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

TEAMATES

(especially the sec three, but nonetheless, i still love the whole team),

i swear i love you guys to bits and pieces. you guys has been the best. (:

2010-02-08T19:53:00.000+08:00

call me a bitch one more time and imma gonna make you a dick-less man. if i could stab you to death with a 2m long, and shove your head up your arse, i bet i would a long time ago. you and your fcuks can go to hell and rot there.

2010-02-05T21:04:00.001+08:00

Hello. this post is gonna be long as i am gonna sum up my life for the past 2 weeks. so, yeah. life hasn't been the best and some know why. but, i'm just glad mum is here for me, now and always. my life now is in a mess, and i'm trying my best to adjust and piece my life back together and get it on the right track, the track it was before. i have been sleeping at nine and that means i have no time for revision. and, my class test 1 results will be a complete and utter shit-hole. and, i won't let my results bother me cause right now, i'm putting my studies on hold. i'm just so tired everyday from hockey, school or even nothing. i don't know why. but maybe my body hasn't find the correct momentum for me yet. and mum has been very understanding and she understand why i will fail almost all of my class test. and after the hockey season is over, i promise mum and myself i will study like mad and put my best game on for studies. i WILL go for tuition and enrichment classes and what not. just, give me a break now. and, i'm sorry teachers if i've been sucha dick-head in class. giving you crap-work that has been done without any effort and failing test. eventhough i've been paying attention in class, everything just goes in and goes out again. sometimes, i wonder. how to my parents get by to live to this age. with the stress. with love. with faith. with perseverance and hardwork. i often say that i will marry a rich man so i don't need to slog my ass out to earn money and just spend my husband's money but i know that's not what i want. i still want to be a zoologist and fly to Australia and cuddle a tiger cub and a panda bear and be bestfriends with a chimpanzee. i still want to visit the Niagara Falls with my mum. i still want to sky-dive. i still want to eat snow in Japan. i still want to go to the Amazon Rainforest and take a swim in the Amazon River. and i would love to participate in a japan japanese game show and end up laughing at myself. but i know all this is not possibly without hardwork. i may not be born with a silver spoon. but that does not mean i have to succumb to fate. it's now or never.

anyway, i miss JERELAD LOKE WEI JUN very much. haha.

"BRO, WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?"

haha. i miss your crappiness and your merepek jokes.

2010-02-04T17:47:00.000+08:00

Dear, PSB.

hi. thanks for even reading my blog. if you have been reading my blog, you wouldn't be even jumping to the CONCLUSION you made. anyway, if you know nuts about me, read my profile. it's quite obvious that i do not look down on you people or anything. i did not even mention about the NA or NT. so, don't put words in my mouth. thanks.

* go and read my profile. and you'll know i'm not what you think.

2010-02-02T19:46:00.000+08:00

i saw the VS team and i almost burst out laughing.

i suddenly remembered about something you told me.

"you know, my school got alot of TOOT. "

i can't believe it, you know that?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

2010-02-01T19:35:00.000+08:00

hi. i'm here cause i'm frustrated over something and imma gonna make it clear now once and for all. i'm hate it when you guys ask "why from EA to EC?" let me make it clear. when you guys ask, that question, you guys give me 'that-face'. and i hate it. it's not only me, but i believe this applies to everyone. let me say that it was by CHOICE. and not because i dropped. nor was it because i was not smart enough. every express class is the same. just that we're taking different subjects combination. and it was also by choice that many people went to EB and EC. this is not a personal attack or anything.

WE ARE EQUALLY SMART. 3EA, 3EB AND 3EC HAVE THE SAME CALIBRE.

so, don't judge. get that facts right first.

2010-01-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH, fcuk tests. i'm dying inside!
someone. HELP!

i wonder. how do you get by toying with so many girls?

2010-01-22T19:23:00.000+08:00

A CRUSH.

you're so cute my dear boy.

2010-01-02T21:13:00.000+08:00

hello hello. I'M SO EXCITED FOR 2010. haha. it's gonna be BOOMZXZ. anyway, my 2010 resolution is to work hard, train hard too. and also, to lose weight. haha. 2009 has been the hardest year for me. there were so many obstacles and all. but, thank god, i survived! woohoo~ thank you for those who have been there for me through it all. thankyouthankyou.

we weren't born to follow.

2009-12-30T18:05:00.000+08:00

hello hello. i so can't wait to get money money so i can get anything i want. haha. hmmm, i have plenty of things to buy. but firstly, i'm considering buying a guitar. next year is gonna be a hectic year. so, maybe a guitar will help me release some stress. and, i want that slouch boots so badly since the winter season is ending soon. and, guess what, half of my homework is done. and i'm happy (: haha. i was switching between files and textbook just to find the solution for one question. haha. how fabuloso -.- anyway, i think i'm done.

2009-12-29T21:07:00.001+08:00

WU ZUN.

far cuter than anyone alive.

go ahead and scream your heads off.

haha.

2009-12-27T16:45:00.000+08:00

I KNEW YOU WERE JUST TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE, BITCH.

THAT'S CALLED KARMA, FAKE ASS.

2009-12-27T15:57:00.000+08:00

i woke early today all excited.

and i love that feeling.

cause finally, i got to do something i love doing so much.

thanks atiqah and jerrald (:

i'm gonna work my ass out

2009-12-21T17:24:00.000+08:00

hello. hello. i suddenly had the urge to blog so much. someone talk to me about peer pressure being so influencial at this point of time in my life. yeah, i have to agree. hais. no one know how disappointed i am in myself except you. i should have made that effort to attend, to train myself, to improve myself to be better instead of slacking like hell. i know it all too late to regret. i've wasted the whole 2 months. i promise myself to train twice as hard as you guys when training starts. cause, hockey used to be my life. before it's too late, before all this disappear. i need to be there for myself.

anyway, i realised that MJ is a hero cause all his songs are inspiring like hell. haha. okay, i've got so much to blog about but somehow, it's all lost. maybe if i get it back, i'll continue with this post.

i miss the time i would miss all that buses just to be with you.

2009-12-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

TWO WORDS

I REGRET

ahhhhh!

fuck it.

2009-12-04T17:27:00.000+08:00

mind the three of us, Humairah was the subject of the day.

heh.

can you believe it? my dad ACCIDENTALLY threw away my ticket to this saturday party. WOW. can it get any better? pfft. i'm fucking pissed like hell. hais. there's no way i'll get to go now. and, i'm having a hard time convincing the girls to go without me. haahaa. okay. i'm done.

AND, I WANT A WEREWOLF BOYFRIEND AS HOT AS SOMEONE FORM JACOB BLACK WEREWOLVE PACK.

2009-11-30T01:19:00.000+08:00

i swear it feels like shit when someone treats you horrible for no reason.

but it feels like BULLSHIT when that someone is one who matters.

ps, treat me the way i deserve to be treated please.

i miss you, and you saying saying goodnight love.

2009-11-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

i swear this was one of the movies that made me cry.

go watch it. it's awesomely amazing like hell.

2009-11-19T23:50:00.000+08:00

hola hola. this will be a proper post as i promised. haha. okay. life has been great like hell. but sure there must be some rough patches but we have to go forward. yeah, not been doing much lately. andand, i can't wait for the vietnam trip! haha. i've been pretty much counting down to the trip. that's how excited i am. okay. i think i'm done. haha. so much for a proper post. okay. at least it's loooooonger than usual. haha. goodbye sweethearts.

it's only a school trip bitches.

and i love you honeybunch <3

2009-11-15T00:38:00.000+08:00

i still remember how you tasted.

2009-11-13T21:05:00.000+08:00

i miss my pink nails.

should i paint it back to pink?

oh my god.

they're so awesomely preeeeeeety.

and i want a sottish fold kitten as cute as this one in the video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D46r4uRCGbg&feature=related

2009-11-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

KONICHIWA

watch this. watch this.

cutest video ever.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KnocgOJoRIw

i will be back with a proper post soon.

SAYONARA.

muah.

2009-11-01T20:19:00.000+08:00

i feel like going away, from everything and everyone right now. my feelings are haywire. i don't even now what i want now. my emotions are unstable. i feel like going to somewhere so peaceful, i can sort out my feelings and just let myself go.

2009-10-31T00:35:00.000+08:00

it funny how simple words can pierce through someone's heart like a sharp shard of a broken mirror. simple phrases like 'i thought you were' and 'i forgot' can shattered someone's heart just like that.

2009-10-28T23:22:00.000+08:00

more pictures and better quality at my facebook.

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME LIKE HELL! life's so great right now, i wish time will stop. i'm trouble-free like anything. my overall results were satisfying. and, i passed my maths overall. thank you baobei for your help whenever i needed you. from a F9 to a D7 and even passing for the matter of fact was not possible without your dedication. it was a great improvement for me. and a whole lot of effort and hardwork. me love you very much. haha. anyway, yesterday was really the best. the boys were suddenly so nice. siddiq was incredibly nice. awwww, so sweet. haha. and, willem and sham danced for us. SHAM WAS SO CUTE! haha. i'll upload the video some other day. i was totally knocked out today. like seriously. i'm so sorry guys. haha. i promised to come. and especially to mr han, i'm really, really sorry i couldn't make it for your last lesson. i really wanted to. trust me.

humans are really funny. sometimes, what they say are a reflection of themselves. me included. they think that people only realise their wrongs and people don't appreciate the good thing they did and more. but, to me, they just are afraid to owned up to their mistakes and use that as a cover.

i told you before. if you can do it, so can i. but your comments were really bullshit. kau tak tahu ape-ape, pergi jage matair sudah eh. merepek betul.

I WANNA WATCH MY SISTER'S KEEPER!

goodnight. don't let the bed bugs bite !

2009-10-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

this two videos are a must watch!

freaking amazing (:

go go go.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=je1KOcBYGjM.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=je1KOcBYGjM

2009-10-23T21:14:00.000+08:00

disappointing. it is when you found out that after all your hardwork and effort, you failed. hais. nevermind. life's like that. anyway, my results were very, very disappointing. i failed maths by THREE pathetic marks. THREE. it sucks failing. but it sucks more failing by that margin.

.
.

haha. i love it when i do something wrong but you still says sorry. i love you.

.

I can fix up your broken heart
I can give you a brand new start
I can make you believe
I just wanna set one girl free to fall
She's free to fall
With me
My hearts locked and nowhere that I got the key
I'll take her and leave the world
With one less lonely girl

2009-10-21T12:52:00.000+08:00

'Will you ever fall in love again?'

hey. i know i've been blabbering alot but there is always a reason for everything. and i am doing this for some personal reasons. haha. yeah. someone asked me that question and yeah. it will be what i'm gonna write about today. haha. yes. i know i will. cause everything and everyone deserves a second chance. i derserve a second chance at this. maybe i'm gonna fall in love tomorrow, maybe next week, or maybe when i'm 21. i don't know. but, i'm sure it's gonna happen someday and somewhen. there's a lot of other tress in the forests; there's a lot of other fishes in the pond. don't give up just because you caught a bad fish. i believe everyone will find that other part of them. for, me, it's just not the time yet. i was just down on luck. and happens to meet the wrong half. haha. what's past is past. and a leapard will never change it spots. haha. and i'm ready to move on already.

andand, i'm privating this blog in a week's time cause of some reasons i've mention before and people just love spamming this innocent blog of mine. how pathetic. haha. so, leave a tag if you wanna be invited kay?

2009-10-20T12:57:00.000+08:00

okay. hello. hello. i've been posting sucked-post nowadays. cause you know, life will take its toll on you sometimes and you just have to get back up again, stronger. they say you have to let go of the past, in order to live for the future. and yeah. it's so true. i've been thinking about life and it's those little things you missed out that makes a big difference. and sometimes, you're just waiting for the sake of waiting. it was long gone. but we were too busy doing our own stuffs to notice it. and now i've let it go, i began to see things. new people. new things. new feelings. you just have to let go. and after all this, you know who are truly there for you. no matter how bad you swear and cursed at them because of someone's sake, they'll just return it words of encouragement. so, i'm not gonna bother about anyone, you in particular, cause you will only hold me back from achieving a better future then what you can ever provide me with. trusting someone who's been lying to you is like buying a product with a fake label. it's better that you throw it away then use it. cause it will only ruin you. so, i'm letting go cause it better this way and if i still holds on, i'll only cause futher damage to myself and disappoint the people i love again. and i promise every single one of you who's been there for me especially girlfriends and suee, that i will never disappoint you guys again and i will never fall back again. cause you guys make me realise there's more to life then lies and deception. even though we cannot predict the future, but we can still give it our very best. and i know you guys will be there for me. now and forever. now, it's time for me to have some fun since exams are damn over (: and forget about all those fucked up things. and you, stop trying to look so happy cause deep down, i know you're hurt by those things i said. stop lying to me, and yourself already. it's over. karma always has it ways (: like what you told me bitch.

and why can't blogger upload the proper time? haha.
and i'll be back with pictures from my marvellous monday (:

2009-10-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

suriati sonny.

i know i took this picture without your permission.

haha. anyway, thanks for being there.

now and forever. without you, i won't be able to do it.

you're the best ever. haha.

i love you so much (:

thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks. thanks.

thanks. thanks. tahnks.

thanks. thanks.

thanks.

2009-10-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

PEIYI, i ain't playing this childish game of yours. no guts? go around spamming people's blog with a fake name and leaving a message at FB. please lah, i did nothing to you. if anyone were to blame, it's your darling little boy. she messed it up. not me. she lied, she cheated. she's no angel come on. and you guys know what? just fuck off from my life. peiyi, you started this and i ain't gonna beg for her forgiveness. or go crawling back to her. she's nothing but shit. just like you. you treat me like shit, you get the same thing. and who are you to judge me? you started this, you clean up this shit. BE NICE.
.
.
I DID NOTHING TO YOU GUYS LAH PLEASE.
stupid childish immature couple.
and, jolly well go to hell.

2009-10-17T21:02:00.000+08:00

2009-10-16T19:30:00.000+08:00

HAHA. look at Syaera!

'izyan, schools are for fools. don't need to mug lahh. throw away all your books.'

HAHAHA. back at ya buddy. now i can throw away my books and you can stop showing off about you finishing secondary school and blahh, blahh, blahh. haha. YES. like finally, i can stop mugging, sleeping late, waking up at 5 to revise and no more headaches! HAHA. AWESOME MUCH. haha. i went food shopping just now!! haha. phizaa : typical izyaaan. (shakes head.) anyway, we were SUPPOSED to go out today. end up, hais. haha. actually, i'm glad we didn't. i just wanna rest today. i feel very tired after FYE. but so glad it's over. MONDAY!! GIRLS, it's a must. A MUST! and humairah, if it doesn't involve you, jangan lahh masuk campur. nanti buat hal lagi besak pulak kann. thanks for being nice anyway. haha. six of us, please make it this monday. i really miss you guys. especially humairah and yaty. anyway, i'm so loving my pink nails right now. pretty much! haha. but, i find it hard to maintain and it's only on my left hand. waiting for mum to come home! haha.

anyway, i've deleted the old tagboard cause of some reasons. i've put up a new one. but if it get dirtied again, i gonna move or private my blog. if you don't like reading, what for do you come right? haha. okay. i'm done.

okay, wait. i'm seriously, very shock. i'm still in shock. i was speechless. friends? sure thing.

2009-10-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

ALL THE BEST!

JIA YOU!

THE LAST 100 METRES!

MUGGING. MUGGING. MUGGING.

i tell you things cause i trust you.

i want you to be there for me.

maybe he's right.

it's takes that little bit to see me cry.

2009-10-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

I travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause boy I want, I, I, I want you right now
I travel uptown, I travel downtown
I wanna to have you around like every single day.

i miss you.

2009-10-05T20:24:00.000+08:00

DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT.
GO TO HELL. GO TO HELL. GO TO HELL. GOT TO HELL. GO TO HELL. GO TO HELL.

URGH!

ingore me. i'm damn pissed now.

2009-10-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

Willem birthday meal.
haha. his faced got smashed into the cake.

HAHAHAHA. it was hilarious!

and hey. don't forget to look at that bimbo's pictures!

haha. i'm LMAO now!

haha. anyway, it was great.

goodnight (:

aku cinta kamu.

wo ai ni.

2009-10-01T16:57:00.000+08:00

Kim Hyun Joong

muah. muah. muah!
i'm falling head over hells.
aren't he the cutest guy ever.

HAHAHAHA.

anyway, i badly want these boots.
Syaera, Phizaa, after exams kay?
follow me go buy please!
haha.

I'm taking a study break now. that's why i'm blogging.
cause i need a rest, so does my body and mind. (:
anyway, there's something i wanna mention.
my life is full of imperfection. so does yours.
so if you're here to discriminate, i'll say get away from me.
and, to that somebody, i'm attached. so back off.

And to those who supported me, THANK YOU SO MUCH.
and thanks for the compliments too! haha *ego*
and thank you to these people for making it possible:
Phizaa
Syaera
Indera
Yaty
Willem
Siddiq
Jessica
Suria
Sahari
Alfi

And to Shazry/Hakim, thanks for the very, very loud cheer.
HAHAHAHA.
i'm off.
goodbye. (:

FYI, i miss you so much.
and you haven't said that to me in a while ahh!
haha

2009-09-28T21:35:00.000+08:00

i freakin' miss the smallest guy in the photo.
i miss you so much lah dude.
gangster already ah! haha.
go out with me soon aye.
and study hard lah dey!
goodnight (:
goodbye <3

2009-09-26T16:03:00.000+08:00

i'm gonna start hardcore studying from tomorrow onwards so goodbye.

i'll update after EOY or something.
don't forget to study too.
wo hen ai ni men ! (:

2009-09-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

To this Daniel?? : what the hell is wrong with you? seriously, i've not offended you in any way or another. i don't even know you. so, be nice. thank you ass.

i'm like, seriously privating this blog soon.

2009-09-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

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will update soon at night.
it 7pm and i wanna eat.
see ya later (:

ps, the photo is Phizaa's copyright. HAHA.

2009-09-23T20:17:00.000+08:00

can this love really survive?
anata ga daisuki deru

2009-09-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

i was very bored that time, i spent my time editting this lame picture. it's very lame, i know. haha. anyway, i've not been updating my blog due to this world which spins too fast for me to catch up. i'm so scared i'll fall behind. don't geddit? haha. nevermind. in short, exams are coming. i got my streaming form which adds to my stress. and the deadline is next month. -.- how pathetic and lastly, personal problems, which you don't need to know. bleahh. hahaha. i'm sucha lazy bum, i haven's start studying for EOY. which usually, i'll be the first one to start among my friends. HAHA. typical kiasu singaporeans kids. i know. this post is gonna be VERY long so if you wanna continue reading, go on. (: my subjects combinations sucks. it's so bullshitty. so gayer. HAHAHA. gayer? nevermind. haiya. i'm crapping as this post gets longer. another thing, too many people are coming into my life when they went M.I.A a long time ago. please, i don't entertain people like you. thank you very much. i'm neither your toy girl nor some shit you can mess around with. i've enough problems on hand, don't make it any worse kay? and i thank you for your concern. it's not needed. but some, it feels good to know they're still there for you. the ones you know who really care for you? yeah. those. and thank you god once again for these great people. those whom i can call up at 1 in the morning and he still picks up the phone just to hear me whim to him about life. hahaha. again, thank you. but some, your attention is clearly not needed in my life. i think i'm done blabering about my life. goodnight. it's 12 am and i'm not in bed yet -.- haha. muaaaaah!

to kaww pehh anak: whoever you are, err, thanks for the compliment?
and i think i have an idea who you are tau! haha. take care (:

your fucking unpredictable, it pisses me off.
when can you ever love me right?

i need to talk to you but it seems you're always too busy.

2009-09-17T21:27:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling so fucked up now, i wish i was laughing like this.

how could you do that to me?

*MOTHER-TOOT*

thanks Phizaa and Bimbo.

where were you when i needed you the most?

2009-09-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

i think i'm privating this blog cause some people don't know how to keep their opinion to themselves.

i miss you alot.

but i don't think you would actually care.

2009-09-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

if you think my manners are uncouth, don't concerned yourself in my life, my blog that is. cause you don't even know me, so don't misapprehend me. and in the internet portal, for this matter my blog, i believe there is a freedom of speech. i did not mention anyone so it's perfectly fine with me. and i don't write to please anyone, not you for that matter. i don't expect the public to read my blog. so if you can't stand my discourteous manner, don't bother reading.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

2009-09-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

MOTHER-FUCKING ASSHOLE.

TO HELL WITH YOU LAH SHIT-ASS.

YOU'RE JUST BLOODY WASTING MY TIME.

2009-09-11T21:01:00.000+08:00

i'm really a bum. i wanna start studying a looooooong time ago but somehow, i'm still in the holiday mood. HAHAHAHAHA. me, please start studying very very sooon. end of year is not far away. hmmm, in the past, there's always that someone to motivate me. hais. nevermind. it takes more muscle to frown than to smile. hahaha. i don't wanna waste time procrastinating. cause if you waste time, time will waste you. chey. haha.

090909.
it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E baby! we ate till we drop. hahahaha. it was like heaven. and i was like in Charlie's chocolate factory; childhood dream. i wanna go again. anyone want to go too? i swear it was the beeeeessssssssstttttttttt. muahahahaha. anyway, i've nothing to blog and i don't wanna waste time on this computer. so, goodnight. (:

'i want you to stay with me by my side no matter what happen'
pleaseeeee say it's true.

goodbye.

2009-09-10T00:32:00.000+08:00

will update tomorrow.

by the way, today was awesome.

goodnight. i'm tireeeeeeeeed.

i miss you.

but there's nothing i can do anymore.

2009-09-08T18:52:00.001+08:00

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you lied to me about so many things, i don't know what or who to believe.
you really are a .... nevermind. you always get upset or angry or hurt at whatever i write here.
whereas i have to endure the pain of reading yours ALONE everytime.

GOOD FOR YOU, YOU'VE MOVED ON.
CONGRATS EH YOU. HAVE FUN.

living life without you is so much easier than i thought.
cause there's so many people out there who would actually treat me better than you.
congratulation to myself. YAY ME.

goodbye.

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2009-09-08T18:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday was awesome. tomorrow's gonna be so much fun. HAHAHAHA. yeah. yeah. yeah. now, i can't wait for tomorrow! CHOCOLATE BUFFET~ hahaha. mr han, thank you so much. 30 more minutes to break fast. i miss eating maggi. i never eat maggi for loooooooooong time already.

the feeling of being stalked is so, DIGUSTING.
random stuff. hahahahaha.

anyway, i'm out of here.

goodbye.

2009-09-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

blogger is so, WOW nowadays. i'm tired. i wanna sleep. and if you're wondering why i have been faithfully updating this blog, the only reason is somehow, i feel this is the only way for me to communicate with you. it may sound dumb but yeah. is it. it really is the reason why. HAHAHAHA. cause every time i feel like texting you, something at the back of my mind stops me. i don't know why and i don't know what. it really is weird actually.
HAHAHA. will update more tomorrow. VERY VERY TIRED. and, i miss you like totally a lot really really alot. HAHA. if you still remember this.

is it really time to move on?
i don't want to. i really don't.
how can i move on when i know i still love you?

goodbye.

2009-09-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

A SO OUT-DATED PICTURE OF US. hahahaha. anyway, my head is spinning. i don't know why. i don't wanna be sick. especially during the holidays. -.- so, i'm out.

happy 7 monthsary to Fuad (:
anyway, chatting with you yesterday was, how should i say?
we cleared things up we never had the courage to do so years ago.
all those confessions was, heart - warming and some, heart - breaking.
haha. anyway, some things are meant not to be said.
but when the time comes, we have to.
i know it was hard for you. but i'm glad you did (:
it's always hard to forget your first.
your every first. anyway, last long aite (:

tomorrow. tomorrow. tomorrow. tomorrow.

i miss you very much.
i miss you very much.
i miss you very much.

but somehow, i know you're still hurt.
and if you wanna move on with her, go ahead (:
i'm perfectly fine with that. hahaha.
cause i know, someday, goodbye will come.
hahahahaha. yeah. if that's what you want.
but you should know, i'm still waiting
all the very best for your N level tomorrow.

i can love you with all my heart.
if you're willing to give me just one chance.
the chance i never had.

it was the very first time i hurt you.
and it felt, awfully. hahahaha.
if you give me a chance, i'll make it up to you (:

goodbye.

2009-09-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

i feel like blogging again. this time, about them. those three up there? they have been with me by my side no matter what. the pleasant times, and even during the harsh times. remember the time when we baked? tak cukup? tak cukup. tak cukup?? tak cukup!! DIAAAM! HAHAHAHA. *laughing kicking and hitting the wall* HAHAHAHA. inside joke. the time we tried hailing a taxi at suntec? yaty : UNCLE! *snapping fingers* (but no sound) humairah : FIVE. FIVE. *signalling to uncle * HAHAHAHA. phizaa, stress as always. me? expected. of course i'll laugh like nobody business. HAHAHA. remebering those times, i'm laughing to myself. HAHAHAH. oh, not forgetting ATQA, my wonderful girlf and Syaera, the bimbo. HAHAHAHA. *laughing rocking up and down* hahahaha. there's so many things we laugh about, i lost count. satu hari tak ketawe mesti tak boleh. there's always something to smile about with you girls. with things, i thank god cause you guys are the bst gift from him. THANK YOU SO MUCH. me love you guys. more than any words could describe (:

goodbye.

you are my favourite drug.

2009-09-05T22:37:00.000+08:00

hello. haha. i had a seriously weird dream just now. a really, really weird dream. i want to start to study today. but no matter how hard i try, i just couldn't get my head in those books. haha. okay. i've nothing to say any more. oh wait. i do have. hahaha. i really wanna take up comtemporary dance. mum please? monday, please come faster. so i can spend my money like a spoilt brat. wait, i'm not one. i'm using my own money. hahahaha. okay. i'm done.

wait. wait. wait. i have one more.
just so you know, i miss you so much.
if you promise to come back, i will never hurt you again.
i really miss you so much like alot.
talk to me soon please? please?
be my side again, will you?
and i wanna go out with you.
like what you said so that day.
hahahaha. please?

my head just couldn't find the perfect spot on his shoulder like it did on yours.

this crush is nothing compared to my love for you (:

everytime my phone beeps, i wish it was you.

goodbye.

2009-09-04T23:21:00.001+08:00

school, -.-" . sometimes, i wonder how will i ever get through secondary school. i never know when i'll collapse due to pressure, stress and fatigue. haha. i know it's random. hmmmm, recovering bit by bit, with love from girlfriends, friends and mum. anyway, my mind is blank right now. mum, i wanna take up contemporary dance classes please! i got no interest in hip-hop anymore. haha. please, please, please? =D and, i can't wait for monday. YEAH. YEAH. YEAH. i can't wait! (:

i'm giving both of us space. you need it. i need it. and hopefully, after this one week, you will not disappoint me again. i wish during this one week, you will really sort out your thinking. what you really want. and whether you're willing to give me just ONE chance. or will you just ask me to moved on and leave me all alone? i don't know. it's all up to you. cause i know there something holding you back now. you very well know what it is. you said it's hard for you to move on. and that's the precise reason why i'm giving you time. to think about us. about you. all i ever need and want is that one chance. just one chance. i've been waiting so long, i forget. until someone reminded me just now that it has been months. maybe, half a year.

if you're reading this, i just want you to know, i miss you so much.
i miss your text messages saying 'i miss you'
i miss your voice. i miss you smile.
i miss everything we used to be.
whatever comes, i still love you.
i still care. i'm still waiting.
you know that. you always do.
so, it's never too late.
i really miss you honestly.

goodbye.

2009-09-03T21:39:00.000+08:00

i'm not gonna do anything.
i'll just let nature take it's course.
cause maybe, i've lost all hope.
but one thing for sure.
i'm ain't gonna cry. no more.
cause after all this while, i've learnt that it just bullshit and hopeless to cry. i will just hurt myself more. i promised myself to never let this affect myself. cause sometimes, i feel that you just don't care. smetimes, i feel you are someone i THOUGHT was always there, but never there. most of the time, i don't mind waiting. but there will always be a time when i really feel like giving up. my happiness is always short-lived. when i thought that was it, when i really thought you and me were meant to be, there must always be something to bring it all down. what's the use? this relationship has been a damn fucking long roller coster ride for me, do you know that? i never know when it will stop. i never know when you'll stop taking me on this ride. i never know. never. cause when i feel it has ended, it's starts again. sometimes, i really wonder when you said, the time will come, will it really come? will you be there? can you be there? can you stay true to me forever and be with me by my side no matter what happen? you know i can and i will. what about you? i don't know. i'm never sure. i know things you think i don't know, the things you never thought i knew and never wanted me to know. like i said, things will always find it's way around. all i ever expect from you is to stay true to me. please. you know i've given you a lot of bloody chances. i'm damn pissed off cause sometimes, i feel you just a two-faced. i don't know. you know i love you alot. you know i trust you alot. you know all that. but just one question for you to ponder, WHY?

sometimes, i don't know why i'm doing all this.
all this just for YOU.

goodbye.

2009-09-02T21:27:00.001+08:00

i've deleted my last post cause it looks so sad. and i promised you i'll never cry again. and i'm trying my hardest to stay happy. HAHAHA. anyway, something really pissed me off today. and to that person, please clear up your shit cause i ain't getting my hands filthy cleaning up your mess after you. you bloody asshole. i did nothing to you for goodness sake. nevermind. i shall not let you dampen my mood cause my over the moon today. HAHAHA. i don't feel like going to school tomorrow. -.-"

and, you know i can wait. i can wait for you no matter what it takes.
i don't want to move on, not without you.

the world's gonna throw me a million reasons why this won't work out but i'm armed with only one reason why it will and that is I LOVE YOU.

one last chance to prove it.
my trusting you with my heart.
cause i believe you'll treasure it.
and will never break it again.
i swear i miss you really alot.

goodbye.

2009-08-31T22:50:00.001+08:00

it's true i'll never forget. when i saw you just now. i was shocked. i didn't expect you. i didn't know what to say. or what to do. i tried to smile. but not a muscle twich. i know it has been a very long time already. a very very long time. i was so childish then. i'm very sorry. you looked at me, you smiled. i looked dumb, i know. you tried to say hello. i just walked past you. i really went blank. seriousy, i'm so sorry. i didn't expect things to turn out that way.

i guess i will be rotting at home tomorrow. bowling? i don't know. sorry mane. you told me something new again! HAHAHAHA. yeah, me love you so much. haha. hmmmmm, long time already ah! hehe.

each of us are busy with our own life. but what is meant to be, will always find it's own way. so, don't worry. (:

i miss you really very much.
more than anyone could imagine.
stay by my side forever.
i love you.

2009-08-30T20:35:00.000+08:00

i seriously wanted to study today. to finish revising my geography and history. but somehow, i didn't manage to suck in anything. NOTHING. i'm so pissed at myself somehow. one more month to FYE and i'm sucha lazy bum. hais. stuuupid. anyway, i'm seriously not sure whether to really do the cheer (the last part) or not. maybe yes, maybe no. cause, it so..... HAHA. whatever. i think i will cause there's no turning back already. HAHA. and to the boys, THANK YOU SO MUCH! me love you guys so much. and, some people are such two-faced bitches. stupid class? -.- look who's talking lah. shit ass. perangai, -.-" .whatever. we can still get by without you. god, help me. i really wanna study. and i should stop blogging now and study or else that someone would, I DON'T KNOW. hahahaha.

goodbye.

i miss you too.
and i **** you.
all i ever want in life is you (:

2009-08-27T23:43:00.000+08:00

- Who was your last text message from?
HMMMM, HAHA.

- Your relationship status?
hmmmmm...

- Have you ever lost a close friend?
yes.

- What is your current mood?
very much happy.

- Where do you wish you were right now?
Australia (: Tasmania.

- Have a crazy side?
i'm very weird.

- Ever had a near death experience?
nope.

- Something you do a lot?
Hmmmm, laugh? i laugh at the slighest thing. HAHAHA.

- Angry at anyone?
no?

- When was the last time you cried?
HAHA. that.... hours ago.

- Is there anyone you would do anything for?
I guess so?

- What is your favorite song?
there's alot. which one you want? (:

- What are you doing right now?
nothing much.

- Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
Nurul HAFIZAH.

- Describe your life in one word?
WILD.

- Who are you thinking of right now?
hmmmm, that. HAHA.

- What should you be doing right now?
in bed, sleeping?

- What are you listening to?
Mcfly - it's all about you (:

- Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
hmmmm, that. HAHA.

- Do you act differently around the person you like?
maybe. maybe not.

- Who was the last person to make you laugh?
NIA SYAERA BINTE SUHAIMI (the bimbo) never fails to do so. HAHA.

- Who was the last person to make you sad?
i don't know.

- Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
that's disgusting.

- Do you have a best friend?
duh. who doesn't?

- Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
duh. who doesn't?

- Are you happy with life right now?
yes (:

- Are you currently jealous?
maybe. maybe not.

- Have you ever had your heart broken?
hmmmm, that. yes.

- Have you ever broken someone's heart?
hmmmm, that. maybe.

-Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
maybe. maybe not.

- Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
sadly, no. ):

and with that, goodbye.

it's all about you baby. (:
me miss you very much.
show me you love me, babeh.

fersh, wild and bold.

2009-08-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

geography marks was very satisfying indeed. migraine sucks throughout school. and all that's left is science paper. hopefully, i can pass that one. it was pretty hard, i should say. life's been very good for me. and sometimes, i don't know why i get so tired easily. i have to start revising soon for my end of year. success don't come at an instant. i have to work hard for it. and therefore, i will.

it's true that i have my doubts.
i shall not deny it anymore.
ask yourself, why?
why do i keep having doubt?
and you'll soon find the answer to it all (:
trust me on this.

all i ever need is just that one chance.
and i'll never let go of you ever.
i swear.

i'll keep holding on.

2009-08-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

hard work breeds success. after back-breaking days, it finally paid off. all my effort finally paid off for malay and history. A1 achieved! haha. anyway, i shall not brag about this. but malay is unexpected, really. anyway, i'm really happy for both that subjects. i'm still waiting for my other subjects. i've talked about my maths, which i rather not again. and i would like to thank someone for agreeing to tutor me, even though you still have your O levels. and hopefully, with your help, i can pass my maths with flying colours (: and you passing your O levels too! and to someone, work hard for your N levels okay! i'll always be there for you (: and whatever the outcome is, you've done your best. and i believe you can do it. anyway, i can't start to fast again.

goodbye.

i'm still waiting and still believing.
i miss you very much. i really do.

make it come true.

2009-08-24T20:50:00.000+08:00

i don't feel like blogging today.
i don't know the reason why either.
maybe, i'm afraid i'll lose you again.
i lost you once, i lost you twice.
i don't ever wanna lose you again.
sometimes, i have my doubts.
can i really get through this?
can i really outfit it all?
just to be with you?
i need you.
by my side.

go back.

2009-08-23T14:15:00.001+08:00

i really hate it when people discriminate the technical students. i don't know why some people are so against them. screw you poeple. stupid shit. really, i don't understand exactly why. they have a bright future too. they just have to take a longer way. maybe, they might even be as successful as express students or even more successful. i shall not name anyone. who fixes your beloved air-con when it breaks down? who fixes your dearest computer when it breaks down? can you live without them? i doubt so. then please, to some people and some teachers, stop putting them down for goodness sake. and give them the respect they deserve. i'm done ranting on this topic. and i don't intend to offend anyone.

i've nothing else to do. except my homework. the programs on tv are boring. i'm lazy to find a book to read. i have no mood to do my homework. and, i'm enjoying fasting. haha.

maybe, i'll update this post at night.

goodbye.

seventy-two months.

2009-08-22T22:48:00.000+08:00

oh great. my computer practically crashed again and and everything had to be reformat yet again. and the best thing is, all my pictures and document are lost. even though brother upgraded this computer and i should be happy, ALL MY PICTURES ARE LOST. damn it. nevermind.

first day of fasting went very well for me indeed. cause i know god will be there for me no matter what (: and help me get through the fasting month no matter the ups and downs. and somehow, i can't wait for tomorrow to come, to fast again. it random and weird, i know.

i failed my maths, once again. but at least i failed with flying colours. HAHA. but what i know is that, half of the class failed with me (: and i haven't got the rest of the results yet. i've studied hard and i've got no regrets, except for DNT. HAHA. i wish i had ): if god permits, i'll do well (:

common test was finally over and at last, i can stop mugging already. haha. and i seriously studied hard. hope all my effort paid off. and when it ended, we celebrated like there was no tomorrow. HAHA. guys, i seriously had so much fun. and sham's singing is so gay. HAHA. no offence.

i don't know why, but i miss you so much out of the sudden.
i hope you'll find the right time soon.